Fleur,

Last year I had a bit of a crash where many years of a diminishing sense of self-esteem came to a head and I sat on my own in my house with the curtains closed for the best part of the year staring at the walls, feeling worthless, ignoring the phone and getting into dreadful debt by not working. For Christmas Mum bought me one of Paul McKenna's books and I really can recommend either Instant Confidence or Change Your Life in Seven Days. Both books are pretty similar and contain an audio CD to boost the techniques that you learn in the books (basic neuro-linguistic programming for any of you who are into this sort of thing). You have to commit some time and effort to them but they really helped me to break out of a destructive thought pattern.

I also went on a short course in confidence building from the Pacific Institute called Steps and it reinforced much of the stuff that I'd been reading about in Paul McKenna's books. I have made some major life-changing decisions and feel much better about myself now although it is an ongoing process, some days are better than others and like I said it takes effort. You may find that this is just a phase and hopefully this will just blow over in a few days or weeks but if you're still feeling low in a month's time then give one of the books a bash.

Good luck cherub.
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