Just wanted to let you know that you don't seem to be selling out in the slightest - as everyone else has already said, you need to eat damn it, not to mention buy shoes and other necessities! You have to look at it the other way around - you are a performer who happens to be doing the 'normal work' thing for a while, instead of someone stuck in a nine-to-five who occasionally gets to do something interesting. And if nothing else, Benefit, wow, staff-discount-arama! I used to work in Selfridges, and the only concessions that seemed to enjoy themselves and get dressed up with the rest of the floor, etc were Benefit & MAC, so I bet you'll enjoy it more than you think. Good luck!